Standing tall.

Me sitting here listening to you talking about her.
Me sitting here listening to you talking about my slutty past.
Me sitting here listening to you insult me.
Me sitting here listening to you stating out my EVERY flaw.
Me sitting here listening to you brag about yourself.
Me sitting here smiling at whatever bullshit you are throwing at me.
Me sitting here trying to calm myself down.
Me sitting here sucking up on my own tears.
Me sitting here biting on my lips hoping things will stop.
Me sitting here standing up to the temptation of hitting myself.

Inch by inch, you break my heart.
Slowly, you kill me.

Thank you for murder.
I will always love you although you killed me. (:

Judge me.

I hate people who come up to me and ask me "What triggers you to be like this? Why are you this bad now? Malay translation: Asal kau semaken terok?"

It angers me, No No, It pains me to answer that question. Because my past, My background. My everything is just as bad. If you were me, you would have also turned out to be like me. For your information. I do know when to study, time to chill. Hanging out is fun but studies is also important.

I know you're going to turn back at me and tell me that my studies is not that good anyways, so why the fuck should i even care to even mention the word 'studies' right? Well yeah i know. My studies sucks and thank god its improving. Because I'm telling you.. Things won't end up this way if i didn't had a major break up with my previous one and a half years girlfriend. Oh yes, for all you out there that still dont know me. I am gay, and standing proud for the gay community.

Call me Homosexual, Slut, Whore or a Backstabbing bitch.. All i care now is my happiness and Of course, my soon-to-be broken family. All i am really depending on for family is now my sister. And i hope i don't let her feel the slightest upset in me. I love my sister. With all my heart.

I thank god for this life i am having right now. Thank you Allah.