Hate.

Do you know what i hate in this particular moment? My parents. The just dont understand what these kids want now-a-days. I feel so low of myself. Like, sometimes i feel home is hell. Yeah, most of you guys think the same way too but sometimes i just WANT to go home you know. I miss talks with mum or dad. Dad not really. Just my mum. I love the way she smiles and laugh when i make stupid jokes and i love that we can go out shopping and still have fun. Now is like, talking about our issues like, im not spending enough time at home, im always coming home late and stuff. Its killing me. Why cant it be like old times when we sit infront of the tv and insult the commercials and the way the actors act. I miss those moments you know. Now, shes like.. you love your friends more than you love me.. you spend more time with your friends than me and stuff like that. I think that my dad is a pussy you know. He is so scared of my mum. like, everytime i want to go out and ask for my dad's permission, he will be like.. go ask mum.. or like.. i dont know, ask your mum or .. inform your mum. Everything is about my mum. Kes.. "laki takot bini" ah ni.
My mum thinks shes the boss just because shes the boss at work she think that everthing she does is doing the best for us. I just dont know what to say. Maybe if you just pass me the home key and let me come home anytime i fucking want, We wouldnt have issues like this you know..

The other day, i had a fight with my mum and she wanted to meet Em and stuff..
So she started saying to em.
"i know im not here for her 24/7. she is my life.. bla bla.. promise me to love her as much as i do. I cannot prevent her from seeing you and bla bla.. Promise me that you will take care of her.. and bla bla"

She said that to m fucking girlfriend. Do you how embarrasing it is? But somehow, better cause now, em can come over my place whenever the fuck she wants. hahaha.

Em, i love you so much. I know we have so many issues. Especially the exgirlfriend. But i just want you to know that i love you so much. In and out. You look great, you're just perfect. Please do not look down on yourself. Thank you for being here with me throughout my hell at home. Our parents are killing us both. softly. But i love you em. I really. a day of not meeting you is worser than spending 2 weeks at home. I cannot leave you. I really CANNOT. i love you baby. So much. i've never felt love like this b4. Thank you once again.

I love Em.
I'm not in love with my parents right now cause they're killing me sofly. Inch by inch. It hurts.

Well. Bye now.